life brought me here

MashaAllah.TabarakAllah.Alhamdulillah...

. a letter to him

dear you, we've come to a place where we wished we never be because here, our dreams will only be dreams and there's a pain in my chest that you'll never know no matter how it hurts i have to let you go dear you, i've cried everyday in my sleepless night wishing that we could go back and to where we started picking up all the memories and put it together again but we can't... how i wish things hadn't changed dear you, i know that u're strong.. that u can still smile when i'm not around when i can't be beside u anymore when everything is trying to bring you down i know u'll stand strong as u always be.. dear you, there's so much more that i wanted to say things that i could never repay and how u always made my day i really do miss you i'm sorry that i couldn't stop it and i'm sorry that i let it all happen and yes i'm sorry i didn't see it dear you, i know one day u'll be happy and may life be gentle with you may God's best come your way and on some quiet tomorrow you will realize things were better this way.. for You, you'll always have a special place in my heart...

. lessons

Weeeeeeeee.... 

I haven't really posted in a while.. Walaupun selama ni tak rajin mana, tapi rindu jugak nak cakap sorang-sorang kat blog macam dulu. Hehehe. A lot of different things have been happening over the last few months and during my absence, my life has been...

good..*errrr* 

bad? *uhhhhhh*

well.. actually a little bit of BOTH! :)

There are so many hard lessons we have to learn in our life *so do I* and I never regret anything that has happened to me in my life.. Yes, the past can hurt but the way I see it u can either run from it or learn from it. To me, it was the greatest lesson I've learned so far. Maybe this new path in my life will lead me somewhere better, maybe it’s just a bridge to another opportunity. Either way, I’m going to enjoy it while it lasts, because if there is one thing I have learned it’s that nothing lasts forever... :) Everything happens for a reason kan? dan setiap yang berlaku itu ada hikmah-nya. InshaAllah. I tengah belajar memahami hikmah yang tersembunyi tu... 

Cewahhh! :)

So, hey! let's move on to the next chapter :D

.mama's birthday

good morning :)

awal i bangun harini sebab semalam tido awal.. around 930pm i dah lena.
i nak cerita pasal my mom's birthday dinner on the 13.10.2011. yes! cerita lama lagi. tapi disebabkan i dah draft so i teruskan jugak lah. hehe

actually it was a last minute plan. i thought nak duduk rumah, bought a cake for her and had a simple dinner with the rest. tu jer. but that evening my sister gave a call. she asked me whether i got works to do that night because her husband wanted to give a birthday treat to mama. so i just said ok. *makan free sape tanak kan?? ;p*

i pon try la balik on time hari tu and siap-siap terus mandi sume get ready tunggu my sis balik. my mom happy jer sebab anak2 semua ada celebrate birthday dia. lepas tu kan, i rase semua mak pun sama kot. kalau tanya apa diorang nak, tak pernah nak demand barang-barang. mesti jawab, "mama harap anak2 mama doa mama sihat dan kuat pun cukup. tengok anak2 mama happy pun dah cukup hadiah utk mama" :') *try tanye kat i ape i nak on my birthday, konfem i bg list wishlist i tros. haha*

mula-mula my BIL nak belanja kat Victoria Station tapi disebabkan mama i tak berapa suka western food, so die decide untuk bawak pegi Fatty Crab kat tepi highway sg.besi tu. yang lepas tol nak g The Mines tu..tapi sekarang dia dah tuka nama jadi William's Crab. owner dia dah bertukar kot.. and we all ambil meja yang belah luar, mengadap tasik besar tu. boleh nampak boat lalu *time tu ada org arab kot sewa bot besar, pasang muzik arab kuat2 siap i boleh dengar..huhu* . so i letak je la gambar2 kat bawah ni yer.. *we all makan seafood je kat sana. sedap jugak la.. boleh datang lagi.. :) *



(Upper) baru sampai... (Lower) Mia..dia tlg bagi ikan makan kat tasik tu. hehe




(Upper) tgh tunggu order (Lower) i da kenyang dah time ni



(Upper) bulan cantik sangat time ni..full moon.. (Lower) semua dah kenyang.




mama ku *rania taknak org lain pegang time ni..ngengade*


to mama, i love u. u're a strong woman when dealing with my stubbornness. buat after all, i still love u. :D

.macaroons

few weeks back i decided to do some shopping sebab dah lame sangat2 tak shopping yang betul2 tu.. plus, my wallet dah hancur sebab cara penggunaan i yang agak kasar dan kurang senonoh. huhuhu. so i pegi je la KLCC sebab itu yang paling dekat..

i went there with my mama. laju je die nak sebab boring duduk dekat rumah. lagipon my dad pegi hospital every monday,thursday n saturday doing his dialysis..kesian pulak nanti kan duduk rumah sorang-sorang takde sape nak kawan ngan dia.. hehe

i actually jarang dah pergi KLCC sebab sometimes i lagi suke lepak kat umah. golek2 tengok tv. rase mcm lagi puas cuti 2 hari bermalas-malasan di rumah. hehe :p
so masa i sampai kat isetan tu i mcm agak teruja tgk foodmarket die yang nampak sgt contemporary kat ground floor tu .. before this takde kan? i pon tak sure bile mase die bukak..

pusing-pusing tengok makanan2 kat situ, i nampak macaroons.. wuh! terus drooling. i penah makan sekali je uolls.. i know orang lain siap buat sendiri, amik resipi bagai, tapi i baru nak makan utk kali kedua. betapa la i tak *haptudet*. so i bli macam2 kaler, ikut suka hati i je pilih kaler2 yang comel, unfortunately, kaler choc dah abes.. kalau tak choc would be my first choice..
harge die, kalau tak silap i lah, kalau amik 5 pieces, around RM3, kalau u guys amik lagi banyak die jadi lagi murah la harge per piece.. tapi i pon tak igt betul ke tak harge tu sebab i dah tak igt, lame sgt dah.. nanti pegi check sendiri ye :)



comel je bulat bulat kecik... semua sedap except for mocha yg kat tengah2 tu...*i never like coffee u see*

macaroons ni memang sangat sweet. my mom kate macam makan gula. haha. tapi i personally suke strawberry and butter. blueberry pon sedap jugak, tapi memang kene minum plain water lah lepas tu sebab mulut rase manissssss je.. huhuhu..



tu nama kedai dia.. boleh pegi carik.. :)

itu je i nak share. walaupun bende ni dah berkurun lame tapi i nak share jugak. haha :p

.material girls

always we heard about girls nowadays are being so materialistic..that they choose money over love. to me, both are important. well, u got an upper-hand if u're rich...but it makes u more esteemed if u're rich+sweet+loving *nice package to win over a girl's heart ;)*

when i was looking for a bf 5 years ago, i did look for a guy with a good future. well, who doesnt?? at that moment i was in a local U, so i was surrounded by college-goers of course. luckily, i fell for someone who was pursuing his studies at that time and to me, when someone is showing how much he love the knowledge, probably he know what he's going to do with his life. InsyaAllah.. as long as the effort is there, that'll be fine with me. doesn't mean that he has to be a doctor or a successful businessman indeed but at least he has a promising career. something that can make me feel secure. trust me, when a woman got strucked by love, she don't really give a damn about his future. if he's jobless, she tends to give him support, help him and find a job for him because she just want to be with her loved one. *love is really blind huh?* but this financial issues is a suicide for your marriage if it still persists.. think about it lelaki2 dan perempuan2 semua...

for men who thinks that we women are materialistic just because we want u to try harder and earn more money, read this :
" One of the main reasons why women push their bfs or hubs to strive for more is fear. we fear that if we don't try our best to make our partner see how importabt ambition and drive is, there is a high possibility our respect for them will diminish over time"

u might be asking WHY?
simply because...women work as hard, if not, harder than men, that makes them more or less equal. and ever wonder why there are so many girls out there choose not to commit to a marriage? well, let's put it this way, if u can afford a car and are able to drive, maintain and fix the car, why would you hire a mechanic?

:)

.konfius

been in a situation where all u can do is wait and just play with the game?
cause every single thing u do will haunt u back and u're afraid if u're making a wrong decision. damn i'm in that situation right here, right now.
if only Guy is here with me. I miss him terribly. *sigh*

.mom's day

happy mothers day to my mama, Hjh. Jamaliah Hassan. i looooovvvvveeeeeee u so much!! (i know she's not reading this but this is a sincere shoutout from a daughter to her mom...)


tahun ni, we all celebrated mother's day kat hospital. why?
because my dad is hospitalized due to his renal failure. ayah kene warded for 5 days. he's getting better tapi masih dalam weak condition sebab tengah salin darah. *darah ayah ade kuman and darah tu dah sampai otak, so doc decided untuk cuci darah dia*. apart from that, dada dia kene tebuk sampai jantung untuk masuk tube dlm his vein to carry blood from the capillaries toward the heart. and 3 kali seminggu ayah kene dialysis. *both of his kidneys are not functioning, that's the main reason why he is in the hospital right now..*
mama sangat setia teman ayah dari pagi sampai malam. since i'm the only one yang belum kahwin and duduk ngan parents, so pagi2, i bawak my mom pegi hospital and teman my mom sampai ptg. i kena tunggu dengan my mom sebab my mom tak reti drive. so nanti time makan at least ada la orang nak keluar pegi cari makanan untuk mama. *fyi, kat dlm hospital tu ade dome je, kantin utk staffs only dan tempat jual makanan bungkus2 ni sangat kecik...dan kurang sedap. hihi.*kakak and abang2 i ade anak kecik. biasenye after zuhur baru diorang sampai dengan princesses mereka yang boleh buat satu bilik tu chaos. bile petang je, i balik untuk mandi2 and time2 ni biasanyer my dad kene dialysis. my mom la yang teman dia jugak, tunggu sampai habis dialysis. *nasib la hospital kat belakang rumah jer, takde nak stuck kat jam bagai, so boleh lari2 kejap*. kadang2 sian tgk my mom, dia tak pernah merungut pun. senyuuumm jer. it makes me wonder, mama ni memang tak penat ke, or dia tak nak tunjuk dia penat sebab nak jaga hati ayah. . :')

so, during mother's day last sunday, we all adik beradik planned utk celebrate mama. lebih kurang macam a sweet reward for her jugak la, even we know we could never repay her. my kakak called and cakap nak beli cake for her. so dia suruh kitorang gather kat hospital around 3 pm macam tu. time tu pulak, ada kawan baik ayah dtg visit. and my kakak tak datang dengan anak2 dia jer, tapi dengan my auntie jugak. meriah kejap dalam ward, dah macam birthday party. hahaha.

my mom sangat happy sebab dia celebrate mother's day kali ni dengan kakak dia,selalu nya celebrate dengan anak2, suami, and cucu2 jer. i pon happy sebab dapat makan kek after few days asek kene makan nasi bungkus. ahahaha :p



tiap2 tahun kek yang sama sebab abg i ngengade tak nak tuka flavor. gambar lagi satu tu ialah mereka2 yang menjayakan mother's day tahun ni. heheh



aloh sian ayah tengok je tapi takleh makan. hihi :p


lastly, i da penat membebel so i nak buat shoutout.. hehe.
"to mama, I am extremely proud of you for everything you did for us. you are super amazing and nothing can change the fact that my mother is like no other. i heart u mama!!"

.my place of peace

i do believe that each and everyone of us has got 1 place which resides closely to our heart.

i do have mine.

when i was a college-goer,i used to be here a lot.
when i'm in tense, i have no other place to go except here.
i love it here because it's the place where I find peace again.
i love it here because this place had promised me that it'll save me from the hell driven place.
i love it here because this is where i met him for the first time.
i love it here because this place keeps the images that fill a place in my soul.




"yes it's just a place, it's just my special place,
it's a place of joy and bliss
a place where I feel that I can belong
a place where could fix all the wrongs"




:)

.iron man

boleh tak kalau nak boifren macam Tony Stark?



manis sungguh iron man ni. dada ade lampu mcm ramlah ram pulak tu..awww!


boleh bawak jalan2 tanpe menggunakan kereta lalu stuck kat jam. (Tony Stark boleh terbang2 macam roket bila dia tegakkan tangan ke bawah, luruskan kaki macam ballerina baru nk start tarian ballet.hahahh)

lagi satu yang best sebab dia Iron Man. gagah tu beb! kalau jentik bunyik kting!kting! ktingg!!

:p

;p

.debab

mase kecik2 dulu anda debab tak?

i debab. pipi i bulat. jari i tembam2 mcm belon. perot buncit sbb tampung makanan. rambot i gulung2. hihi.

tapi biler dah besar sume tu dah takde. i dah tak tembam mcm dulu. jari i jadi panjang2 dan kurus macam ranting kayu. badan pulak tinggal sekeping. sume dah jadi lain. kenape?

i suke tgk baby yang bulat2 macam bola tu. yang pipi die tembam macam nak cecah bahu. yang biler die gelak, pipi die jadi tegang sebab gemok sangat. ya Allah, serious geram.

i ade 5 orang anak buah. sorang tu lelaki. thorn among the roses. tapi anak buah i yang paling maximum kedebapan die ialah si Mia. No.2 Rania. Mase Mia kecik2, rambot die tegak2 tak moh jatuh. mata sepet macam apek jual sayur. pastu die booooolaaatttt! seriyes bulat woh. i ingat lagi kalau i dukung die lame2 pinggang i leh sakit. senget2 je kalau dukung die kat mall sebab tahan berat die yang obes tu. tapi biler dah besar die kurus. die jadi seorang budak yang kurus dan tinggi dan banyak cakap.




halah comel time nih...lawak pon ade sebenarnyer ;p


rambut baru nak 'jatuh'. macam pakai helmet kan?kan? hihi


sekarang ni i ade Rania. die tak sebulat Mia mase kecik2. tapi disebabkan dah takde sape i nak ciom2 time balik keje, so Rania yang sombong tu pon ok. apesal i kate die sombong? sebab die tak nak kat i eveytime i nak kat die. i je yang terhegeh2 kat die. i rase sebab i selalu sangat tenyeh2 pipi die sampai merah, sampai die marah tarik2 rambut i. hahaha. sape suruh debab kan?? Rania sangat teruja kalau dia nampak makanan atas meja. dia akan tenung makanan tu lame2 pastu juih2 bibir bajet comel. bile dia geram tengok makanan, i pulak geram tengok die. boleh tak??






dah penat dok tawaf satu umah..



kesimpulannye, i suke budak debab (walaupun selalunyer i je yang suke, dorang tak suke i pon). kalau debab memang team i. ahahaha. *dan-dan team i, padahal i pon keding*. so, lastly,i nak cakap satu bende untuk bayi2 debab di luar sana.

debab rock! hihihihihi

p/s: balik nnti i letak gamba debab2 kesayangan i. chaoo!